So lately I have had to do some serious thinking about things and I have come to some conclusions. Here they are:
1) I signed up for LDS gems which are daily emails with spiritual thoughts, and I got one yesterday that got me thinking. It was all about the will of the Lord and how we need to earnestly seek that will so that we can aligned our lives with it. I have heard this many times before, but this time it really touched me. Lately I have been so frustrated because my life hasn't been going the way I think it should, and I haven't been getting answers to things I have been praying about. Not just a little frustrated...A LOT frustrated! However, this little email just made me realize that instead of praying over and over again for something I want--I should be praying to more fully understand the real plan for me, and that I can accept that. It's definitely easier said than done, but now that I realize what I need to do I feel better about everything.
2) I have definitely been a "Me Monster" lately!! Let me explain: This past fast Sunday someone got up and started talking about how he realized he had become a me monster. He said that he realized he was so wrapped up in his problems and his needs that he hadn't noticed that there were others who needed him. This has totally been me lately, and as he was speaking I just thought "WOW here is my answer!" I have been sooo concerned with my life and what I want that I have totally become completely self-centered. Remember the gloomy post I made?! That was how I have been feeling, but it kept me from seeing others needs and being a supportive friend. Helping other people is what is ultimately going to make me sincerely happy. My Dad even said in a talk tonight that "if we always have something to complain about we are only thinking of ourselves." So true. (wow, two talks in two weeks?! I think someone was trying to tell me something! haha) I was only making my unhappiness worse by continuing to focus on myself. Even these past few days I have tried out this principle and have felt so much better. It works, try it!
3) Holding grudges is sooooo stupid!! It's not worth it at all! The other day when I was redoing my blog I wrote a quote about when I distance myself from Ben I only end up realizing that I am unhappy without him. (check it out on the side) I have really noticed that lately. I am pretty stubborn, and when I get mad about something its hard for me to just let it go! I know sometimes on my blog it sounds like Ben and I are just so happy and perfect all the time, but we definitely have our fights and problems. Well, a while back Ben and I got in this stupid fight and I would just NOT give in. I ended up ignoring him for 2 days!!! AND what I learned from that was how much I am only just punishing myself when I do that. Those days were miserable for me! Ben is my best friend and without him my day was just lame! It was funny that my Dad also mentioned this tonight in his talk, because I have felt the exact same way lately.
SO!! That is what I am working on in my life right now! Hopefully I can get better at all of these things because they are so important! Also, I have a job interview (FOR A NURSING POSITION!! WOO HOO) Tuesday so wish me luck!! Maybe my new found 'sunshiny-ness' will help! haha.
1 comment:
great post! :) Heavenly Father always has a plan for us. I have to confess that when Heavenly Father told us that we were to adopt a little boy that was 1/2 way around the world i argued with Him. How silly is that? He always knows what is best!i am so grateful i didn't know what was best for me because Nick is one of the greatest blessings in my life!!
also, this is a quote that helped me endure the hardships of adoption and maybe it will help you in your life. it is by elder neil a maxwell.."patience is tied very closely to faith in our Heavenly Father. Actually, when we are unduly impatient, we are suggesting that we know what is best---better that God does. Or. at least, we are asserting our timetable is better than His." i don't know if that quote helps you or if it is really random! hopefully it is helpful :)
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